Focused

My traffic is way down compared to my old blog and yet I am infinitely happier with this version. I am more lucid than I have ever been in my life and more content regarding my gender issues while understanding to my core that no life is perfect. When you come to a point of resolution you necessarily become calmer and more focused.

I have abandoned all orthodoxy which does not make sense to me and examine things with more clarity. When there are no more sacred cows you probe everything through a clearer lens because you are less emotionally compromised. Here age and experience have helped me because I have shed all unnecessary pretense and obligation from my life. I can be bluntly honest because I have earned the right to be however never at the expense of someone's feelings. I have also successfully blended into society as myself which has no price.

At 60 my fear is gone (no I am not taking up skydiving) which is saying a lot for that shy little kid who once hid behind their parents' legs.

If I may presume, the best piece of advice I would give to any trans person still working on themselves is to own who you are. No apologies. Don't pretend that you are confident but be confident to your core. I don't care how well you blend or you don't. The hardest work I had to do on myself was all mental and once complete my reflexes kicked in and did the rest because there was nothing to learn. I just needed to allow myself to do what came naturally.

It's all about the space between your ears.