Chipping away

Internalized transphobia is unavoidable especially for those of us who are older and fought our natures growing up as hard as we could. When you are educated ingesting negative opinions about anyone who is different, your own inclinations will invariably be seen as something to get rid of which is why I asked the hospital gender identity clinic to cure me when I first went to them.

Of course there is nothing wrong with transgender people but knowing this doesn't always help to get rid of the internalized transphobia completely. As someone who rejected my nature so thoroughly, I am nevertheless sometimes astounded that there isn't more residual negativity.

Delving into the science of course helped, but even more was solidifying the understanding that something this pervasive and powerful was not personally dreamed up. The fact that I could trace my gender incongruence so far back meant that its roots were not formed in pathological disorder. I am simply too level headed a person in every other aspect of my life so I eventually abandoned that type of thinking for at least some degree of biological sourcing for the way I am.

Chipping away at the internalized transphobia can be tedious and we sometimes experience setbacks but it must be dealt with if we are to live balanced lives. I don't compare myself to anyone else which is a good idea if we are going to establish a life plan which best suits us. Even if we recognize certain archetypal patterns within ourselves, it is always best we go our own way and find that highly personal formula.