A role you were not trained for

The psychology of full time living requires a huge but gradual adaptation especially when combined with a recent retirement which can unbalance you at times. You go from 34 years in a demanding career, managing gender dysphoria, a stroke, a divorce, raising two children to suddenly no concrete goals and living as a woman in your early 60's.

It derails even as it pleases you greatly for you have entered a role which feels entirely natural to you except you were never really trained for no matter how strong your early instincts.

Living part time does not really prepare you for this because you have now become untethered from an imperfect familiar you were educated under; a place whose safety net you have now left behind and aren't going back to.