Balancing energies

One of my personal challenges was trying to find a balance for my masculine and feminine energies which for years were not being well served. Previously I had the masked existence where no feminine energy was expressed and it was instead channeled into outings where the temptation to exaggerate could easily be encouraged. This is because you want to fit it all in during the limited window that you have. In the worst cases you end up with a caricature which is the last thing you want in public.

Contrast that to today where I have a cohesive and balanced existence through social transition where the energies ebb and flow as they are supposed to. I am not a masculine being who dabbles in femininity from time to time; something which for many years was slowly eating away at my soul.

Your own formula should ideally strive for this balance as much as possible because the more stark the contrast and the more compartmentalized the existence, the more the psyche must work hard to rationalize it.

I understand very well why some people need to maintain this existence (some might even favor it), but it can be improved through more blending of the two energies such that the dysphoria (assuming you have it) is less inclined to build to a crescendo and then need to be dealt with.

Even with transsexuals, the most successful transitions tend to be those where the person is able to marry the past with the present to create a complete human being where nothing of value to them is thrown away.

Life is about balance.