Elevating

Some people end up stunting their gender variance without even knowing it. It becomes a secret activity which takes on mythic proportions in their mind when they would be best served by trying to elevate it and blending it into their lives in more cohesive ways.

How do I know this? Because I used to live that way until my early forties. It was mentally and physically taxing and looking for holes to fit outings took on obsessive energy which was best put elsewhere. My dysphoria simply got worse year after year until I could no longer cope on outings alone. My life disintegrated and I had to start over.

Fear was the main culprit here of course. My fear of rejection was paralyzing me and it was entirely unwarranted but I had no way to know as a child of strict binary education.

Over the years I met people who were best described as euphorics and were able to balance a double life comfortably. Unfortunately I wasn't one of them and I was in good company with many people my age who straddled well into the realm of transsexualism but could do very little because of life choices.

But no matter where you are on the continuum it will do your psyche a great service to elevate your gender variance to a higher plain.

People just don't give a shit and those who do don't matter.