Turmoil

I was thinking about Kimberly once again this morning and the dilemma of many older transgender people. The question is whether they have an illness (ie. dysphoria) preventing them from leading a normal life or are their true natures suffocated by years of indoctrination and need to free themselves from it. This is very difficult to answer because it is not simple to separate who we really are from we have been taught to be.

This in essence has been the main struggle of my life and the reason I first began blogging.

Some gender variant people seem to have an ability to compartmentalize their lives which avoids them sitting on the knife edge and deeply examining who they are. Their weaker or entirely missing dysphoria permits this internal identity turmoil to be avoided.

Unfortunately for Kimberly, who is quite likely transsexual, the specter of religion only further complicates the reflection process she is undertaking.