Narratives

When I was first exploring who I was, reading other people's narratives during the advent of the internet and beyond was a way to find commonality. One storyline involved finding bra or panties in a hamper, trying them on and being aroused thus beginning a lifelong pattern. Another was the child before going to sleep wishing to magically become a girl upon waking up the next morning. These two narratives could be considered archetypes for people we then either called transvestites or transsexuals as they tended to repeat.

Then there were others that were less obvious and more unique where the road was less clear both for the person themselves and certainly the reader looking for shared experience.

We have all performed this search in finding our own personal origin which was made more complex by the unique set of circumstances of each individual. The type of home environment, the cultural norms and religious beliefs all playing into a cocktail that is very difficult to dissect with perfect precision.

The idea of both predisposition and biological origin fascinated me because together they feed into the concept of a nature and nurture mix which could be argued is a likely culprit. Here I deliberately leave out adults who begin out of curiosity (call them hobbyists if you will) because they fall out of my interest group which is between birth and the advent of puberty where most gender variance is formed.

The idea that you could reproduce any one situation in a laboratory is ludicrous simply because too many variables are at play and the precise recipe has far too many ingredients to make their exact proportions known. In that sense we may be hard pressed to find a sole smoking gun.

My conclusion has been to simply think that if a formula is possible, it is bound to happen. One of the many possible permutations towards creating a human being.