Disregarding all sides

The more I detached myself from all communal thinking the better I felt. I understood that all terminologies were somehow wrong, inadequate or laden with historical baggage and proceeded to go down to the roots of the phenomenon which was my gender dysphoria and the attention it merited. 

On one hand, societies places completely unrealistic expectations and restrictions based on birth sex (or at least they used to) and on the other some of the responses to these shackles from gender variant people made little sense to me and could not serve as adequate models. In many cases there was too much contradiction involved in trying to please the world while trying to embrace some form of authenticity. You cannot be all things to all people without getting lost somehow and risks are sometimes worthwhile while standing up for yourself. Keeping my self respect was of paramount importance.

A reinvention of the self based on rational thinking was in order which involved completely disregarding opinion from all circles. Once I had analyzed my childhood and absorbed the crux of whatever science existed, I had to find a new baseline which embraced my nature and incorporated it into daily existence with the maturity that someone past middle age required.

You finally become fully yourself and you don't care who doesn't like it.