The way of water

One of my eternal sins is overthinking. Everything is analyzed and combed over so I can properly understand which can make you lose feeling. One of my earliest conflicts was the how to avoid giving in too easily to instinct before having properly understood this subject. 

Of course the answer was that the comprehension process happens in parallel to feeling and accepting your core essence. One does not follow the other. As a young child I felt something I was taught to reject and I needed to find my way back except now with more the mind of someone trained in the sciences.

After accounting for individual dysphoria levels, people who I deemed too easily fell into acceptance were in equal parts irritating and admirable and I eventually learned to find my own perspective which always kept a certain degree of objectivity and skepticism. As a result I gravitated more towards thought-provoking, analytical and introspective blogs. There are so many types of people in the world with their myriad of viewpoints, that I wanted to keep more of a bird's eye view and looked for obvious archetypal patterns in the process. 

This last cleanup phase has been about marrying the analytical with the emotional and finding a balance point the way that water eventually does after it is perturbed.

It works very well for me.