Random

There is a big difference between looking for love and being open to it. If one looks one is already primed with a certain mindset and examines prospects with a filter one does not have when one is simply open. The latter takes the whole person in with no preconceived ideas.

My friend Patricia asked me yesterday if I would ever look for it to which I gave a resounding no. I have already felt the painful sting of investment go sour and won't readily give up this freedom and internal peace I now have.

There is something wonderful about letting the universe come to us in unexpected and organic randomness and for someone who grew up trying to control their surroundings it is a breath of fresh air to embrace it.

Not to mention that the track record of transgender people in general (even if androphilic) tends to have the effect of keeping one grounded in reality.