Baby steps

If you're anything like me, over the years you have been trying to cobble yourself together into one piece. This can take a long time because if you are older you were taught to reject yourself so be patient. 

You weren't meant to be two people but only one. 

Using neuroplasticity to rewire the circuits takes time. Once you realized this was something you had to do, you were forced into a reconciliation and repatriation process where the past isn't jettisoned but embraced. 

I continue to think that trying to maintain separate masculine and feminine personas is not ultimately healthy for the psyche. The exception being when your cross gender expression doesn't have deep roots in identity and you can somewhat comfortably compartmentalize. In other words, it should be a necessary reality and not a goal when have strong investment fed by our dysphoria. 

I think the aim should be to coalesce ourselves into one entity with a unique set of traits that need not necessarily conform to a binary which is already quite malleable in 2025. 

We just need to very transparently own it and dump the secrecy which can sometimes take very tiny baby steps over a long period to achieve.