Unification

After a while I could no longer stomach living as two halves of a whole. The male social facade and the dysphoria management outlet were not sufficiently enmeshed and it became increasingly like Chinese water torture to allow it to continue. 

Uniting the masculine and feminine animas (to borrow terminology from Jung) was the therapy I needed; that and coming out fully which has been one of the great decisions of my life. 

Beginning with the pandemic, I was shown that the old formula wasn't working but was instead a patch up job meant to satisfy everyone but myself. 

However that unification isn't a simple one because you now need to determine who this fully integrated person is. How daily life is lived and expressed suddenly becomes a new psychological exercise which gets you to a new baseline. This last bit of unification is what I have been calling my cleanup and that being at the end of the process is simply called who you truly are. 

No other terms are required.