Remedy

The last bit of work for me is to almost fully disarm. I can have a wicked temper and I will cut you down if you perturb me. 

The lowering of the temperature began years before retirement and continues to this day but I still have an axe to grind which needs dulling down. 

If you are afraid of people you are done for because society of full of deeply stupid and disturbed individuals. If you let them get to you they will destroy your internal peace. 

However there is a balance between self-protection and being kind that isn't always obvious. You need to have a peaceful baseline with a weapon at the ready.

If you were different in my generation you shut up and tolerated until you became a potential explosion. My venom built over time until there was plenty to spare which is why I work on my kindness towards strangers as remedy. 

Thus I walk softly and carry a big stick just in case.

Pretty much mandatory for an out transgender person.