Deserved

My system normally operates at very high intensity and I am presently working on slowing it down. For over 33 years I worked in a challenging profession full of deadlines and we had to be fast on our feet. That adrenaline is no longer required but old habits die hard. Plus I had to train myself to tolerate bouts of gender dysphoria which felt at times crippling.

Sometimes I marvel at how we humans can multitask and even delude ourselves so we can continue to function. At a certain point, however, the slowdown becomes not only beneficial to us but mandatory. Suddenly the perspective which comes with lived experience demands that we tend to ourselves properly because we deserve it.