Recharging

You may have had this happen to you. You look fine when you look in the mirror except while outside navigating the world you see inside your head the person you were before you transitioned to where you are now. It doesn't matter what others see. It only matters what you do. 

It took me a while to shake this off along with the self-conciouness that comes with the bigger picture which encompasses impostor syndrome. 

One of the reasons gender variant people tend to use mirrors is to recharge a confidence which threatens to falter. You make selected pit stops to bolster a confidence that has run out of energy and needs a boost. 

After a while I realized that people were seeing me for who I really was and the confidence needed less recharging because I was never pretending to be anything other than myself.

Today mirrors are used much more sparingly.