Whatever form of transition you have chosen, it can be conflated with bad moods or experiences which can then make us question our path.
This is very common and gender therapists warn about this happening all the time to their patients. Older people are the most prone due to the weight of lived history especially if much was lost.
After you live a while in your chosen formula life becomes more routine and both dysphoria and euphoria calm. This phase can make us doubt where we are especially if life events aren't going our way or even if we get up on the wrong side of the bed.
This has happened to me occasionally but then the feelings burn off and I go back to being reassured often less than an hour later. Life isn't all roses every moment and we can be tempted to put everything in the same barrel when we are feeling a little off whatever the reason. It is why the psychological preparatory work in advance is so important no matter what path you choose for yourself.
Life has challenges for us all and this is just one of the many.
This really resonates. I’ve definitely had days where something totally unrelated goes wrong, and suddenly I’m questioning everything—my identity, my path, all of it. It helps to know that’s just part of the process sometimes, and not some deep sign I’ve made a mistake. Thank you for putting words to it.
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