Timebombs

Unresolved issues can create a lot of stress and turmoil for us. With me it got to a point that if you perturbed me I went straight for your jugular. 

It harmed me more than it did anyone else. 

When something remains unsettled it festers and colors us. We become ticking timebombs that we need to disarm. 

This week I met some of the ladies from work for dinner and much of the discussion centered around career. One unsavory office character came up during our discussion and I recalled how many incidents I had with him over my 20 years there (my third and last firm).

I had concluded over time that he had unresolved issues and slowly but surely changed my approach towards him. If nothing else, it lowered the temperature between us in parallel with my increasing sense of self. 

My getting a handle on my dysphoria over the years was helping to make me a less frustrated person. A dysphoria that my busy career was impeding me from adequately addressing.

This fellow's rap sheet with HR is very long and he continues to get away with his bad behavior. However, I know all too well that no amount of corporate stair climbing and fancy cars can substitute for internal peace. 

One of the ladies unabashedly said she hates him and I can understand her sentiment as he remains the single most difficult character of my entire career. 

However, by the end of time there, I no longer felt compelled to seek any discord with him.

Things have only steadily improved since then.